Yesterday at this time I was getting ready to run my first steer at Puyallup, excited to run at the big money and make the NFR. Today I'm driving home with a torn bicep, just thankful I didn't tear my pec. Guess this wasn't my year after all. As the song says, " Keep on dreamin' even if it breaks your heart"
This has been such a crazy year & myself I am still trying to process this. I heard Keep on Dreaming on my way to work this morning & teared up while listening to it thinking of Kyle & his disapointment of how the 2012 rodeo season has ended up. I have a range of emotions. I am proud of Kyle & all he has accomplished this year & the years prior. To get so close to his life long goal of making the NFR & then to get injured the last 3 weeks of the season is so heart breaking. On one hand, I am thankful that his injury is something that will heal with time & at this point, no surgery is necessary. On the other hand, it is hard to try to find the reason in why this had to happen now of all times. I realize the sport of rodeo has its risks & I guess I have taken for granted how lucky we have been to avoid injuries in the past. Truth be told, every time Kyle climbed on the back of a bronc this year, I would say a little extra prayer for him to not get hurt with were he was in the world standing in the steer wrestling. I guess this is a lesson for me that no amount of worrying will stop something from happening no more than it can make it happen.
In all my thoughts & disappointment for Kyle, I do know God is good & he works in mysterious ways. For one reason or another it looks like Kyle is not meant to make the Finals this year. I wish I knew why, but at this point it is not for us to know. We have to trust & God willing Kyle will make it when it his time to do so.
Kyle keeps telling me he is going to slow down & not hit the rodeo trail so hard in the near future. When that day comes I will be thrilled to have him home more. Until he is ready to make that transition I fully support him pursuing his dream. I figured if I could make though this year while Whitney was a baby, the future years should be a breeze! :-)
We have so much to be thankful for & I am blessed for all the good things I have in my life. I do not have to look far to see others & their struggles. I am so blessed for my 3 healthy children & that I have a roof over my head. I have a job I love (most of the time :-) & I am married to an amazing man. These are the things I am trying to focus on & it is a good reminder how we can plan for something & work hard, but many things in this world our not in our control.
Out of difficulties grow miracles. 1 Peter 5:10
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